Hidden from you ((Xanos/Azriel))

[XanosxAzriel4EVA]

Xanos arrived in a explosion of black flames the then receded as the portal closed. He looked on the orange and yellow washed streets walking slowly looking for the location where his defeat had taken place. He could not make any mistakes, not this time. so he went back to analyze his defeat and overcome it. Standing with his arms crossed he glared determined at the apartment building, deep in his thoughts of rage.

[kadajxcloud]

Azriel wandered back to Twilight Town, in search of Xanos. He didn't know why he came here, but there was something that made him want to come. Something he couldn't explain. As he took a turn he noticed someone.

"Xanos..."

[XanosxAzriel4EVA]

A twitch of exertion pulled at Xanos. A cruel and unfeeling smile stretched across his face. "hit and kill" he attacked like lightning, failing was not an option. All yearning all wanting, it was supressed for the goal of winning

[kadajxcloud]

Azriel's eyes widened as he was suddenly attacked so fast he barely saw what was going on. He dodged the attack and barely made it, leaving a scratch on his right cheek. Lifting an arm, he wiped the blood off, smudging it as a result.

((random but....wouldn't it be cute if Xanos licked the blood off? xD))

[XanosxAzriel4EVA]

Riveted, Xanos clenched the shurikens in his hands. His face was down turned and he looked at Azriel through the rivets of silver hair that framed his face. His toughest opponent was there in front of him anger heated his actions, until his gaze met Azriel's. He melted! Dropping the shurikens he hit the floor and curled into a ball tormented both physically and mentally. His emotions were confronting each other, Hate and Love, suffering and longing......untamed ecstasy and unbridled lust were winning in the confines of his mind. A battle raged deep inside him that he could not control, nor did he want to. I am a failure.....I fail for the last time.... "Kill me!" he cried shaking with emotion. The shuriken's dispersed, melting into the sandstone streets.

(( this is what you get when I listen to Xanos' theme song. Hollow by Submersed! XDDD I'm hyper to the umpteenth power!))

[kadajxcloud]

Azriel wasn't sure what to do anymore, he was just as confused as the one in front of him. The many times he accidentally let his guard down, he'd almost lost his life. But this time....it didn't seem like an act, it was so real he could just feel all of Xanos' emotions coursing through him. Like a huge wave that hit him...hard. His expressions saddened "What am i thinking now......im better off dead." He thought bitterly. He then slowly walked toward Xanos and put a hand on his shoulder, where he once wounded the man. His heart ached that he could have harmed him like that, even though Xanos had tried to kill him. He couldn't control his feelings for him. ...wait....feelings? He thought as his eyes widened. What did he mean by that!? ...Things just seemed to get more and more confusing by the minute he spent with the other. Why did everything have to be this way?

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Sinking deeper and deeper inside himself Xanos was lost in his eminent darkness. Visions of his past flew by him in short choppy images. When she found him, joining Organization XVI, realizing he was a nobody......

"Your a nobody, you don't feel!" He had told himself long ago, he was such a child when he'd first joined, being mothered...by Aterx. "that's not true! your lying! she'd yelled at him those very words.....He'd hurt her, and from then on he hurt many. Killing, torturing, taunting, kidnapping, it didn't matter what the assignment was he'd do it if it meant that he didn't have to apologize to anyone afterward.

A hand rested on his shoulder, light was brought back into this nobody's dark world. He looked up at his silver haired saivor, his light. "Azriel..." he said quietly, holding to the hand on his shoulder, his punisher, his angel, his and his alone. He flinched up as a tiny shot of pain ran to the point of contact.

what was it that Aterx called it? "If 'somebodies' can love, then why can't 'nobodies'?"

love? What is love? He didn't know the answer to that.

He looked up into Azriel's eyes, they were entrancing, as blue as the sky in some worlds. He stood holding onto his angels hand firmly but gently. He felt warmth, he felt! How was this possible? Uncontrollable his emotions were filled with lust, and the wanting to give to his angel.....ecstasy. He pulled Azriel close lighting a kiss on his lips. How good it felt! Quickly he withdrew from him turning to the dark ally nearest them, he had to leave. He'd done the unthinkable!

[kadajxcloud]

Azriel's eyes widened as his lips met gently with Xanos'. A kind of warmth surged through him. He couldn't explain it. Then suddenly Xanos pulled away. He remained in the same place staring at Xanos's back and he retreated. He then snapped back to reality and reacher out an arm to him as if trying to grab hold of something, but Xanos already disappeared out of Azriel's reach. He sunk down to his knees, the feeling of loneliness starting to claim him once again. And the warmth, disappearing. He lightly touched his lips, feeling Xanos' lingering presence.

[XanosxAzriel4EVA]

Xanos had not left, not truly. He lurked in the alleyway watching Azriel with longing in his eyes. His silver bangs glinted lightly in the dim. He could not turn away. No, he didn't want to. He stepped out of the shadows, arms crossed his usual defiant expression on his face. I must not have emotions......not for anyone....no one... he thought determined. But there on his knees was his angel. How could he resist? He couldn't, slowly he walked toward him, if he had a heart it would have been beating so loud he couldn't have heard his own footsteps.

[kadajxcloud]

Azriel looked up to the sound of footsteps. It was Xanos. He suddenly felt so relieved to see him coming back to him that without thinking, he got up running towards the one who mysteriously was able to take away his loneliness and hugged him tightly, his face buried in Xanos' chest.

[XanosxAzriel4EVA]

Xanos had been formulating some way to explain this 'attraction' he had towards Azriel, and had come up with nothing. As sudden as the wind he was embraced by the one person he should hate. speechless he stared wide-eyed at the display unsure how to handle this. "It's called a hug" Aterx had said, she told him a lot of things, back then it seemed like the best thing in the world. Had this happened earlier and by anyone else he would have killed them. But this....was different this was special....he felt whole the emptiness of his absent heart was filled with something.....something warm. He tentatively wrapped his arms around Azriel, closing his eyes and resting his chin in Azriel's silver hair.

[kadajxcloud]

Azriel felt relief wash over him when he felt Xanos return the embrace. With a small smile on his face, he hoped this wasn't a dream....that he could feel happiness. Also that....this wasn't an act. He prayed with all his heart that Xanos wasn't acting this out just to get him to trust him. And one day...maybe kill him when he would least expect it. He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to block out those horrible thoughts from entering his mind. For now, he would forget all that and think about it later.

[XanosxAzriel4EVA]

What is this feeling?

The warmth grew filling his whole body with the light of his angel. Was it too soon to say this? it didn't matter, this moment he had to say it. "I- I" his mouth ran dry. He wanted to say it, but no words would form. He stroked Azriel's silver hair with one hand, Then with the other he lifted his chin and placed a sweet kiss on his angel's lips. It lingered and deepened. But just was he began to truly enjoy it, Xanos turned away, rejecting the 'feelings' he felt for him, they were enemies! Furthermore, he was suppose to be after that little witch. He looked back at him with longing in his eyes. Their icy surface reflected Azriel's image, Xanos' coldness was melting, revealing the boy who had arrived at the organization not that long ago. He was vulnerable and that did not ease his worries, only intensified them.

[kadajxcloud]

Azriel leaned into the kiss, but suddenly Xanos pulled away. His face saddened. Slowly lifting his arm, he gently turned Xanos back around to face him. Azriel stared straight into Xanos' eyes. Everything felt so vulnerable. As if the slightest thing could Shatter the peace that has settled between them. "Xanos...?" He finally said, breaking the silence.

[XanosxAzriel4EVA]

The nobody stared blankly into the eye of his torturer. His name was heard, and the wall that separated the man that stood there and the boy that hide inside shattered. Xanos sank to the floor ......stop! Make it stop! STOP THIS NOW! He hid his face in his hands, tears threatening to breech his composure. He could not take it any longer, this was too much. He was breaking. Like a doll, he was breaking into pieces.